Soul Eater ~~~~MakaXSoul  <Soul pov>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

If only she saw the look in my eyes meant more then just friendship. She was clueless and I didn’t have the courage to tell her the real reason that I had been avoiding everything that had to do with her. That meant pretty much everything in my case. I rolled over and pulled the covers that were on my bed up over my head.

I was shrouded by sudden darkness, but I liked it. It was the sadistic in me. Well at least that was what I assumed. I felt the covers get jerk from my body, I saw her smiling face and I new I would melt if I wasn’t careful.

“Soul, what are you still doing in bed? It's all most time for school.” Her smirk was wide and everything about her seemed bright. I exhaled a breath to steady my feelings. She seemed to be confused by my actions, but that was fine. I was too afraid to tell her how I really felt.

“Sorry, I lost track of time. I will be ready in a few minutes.” I mumbled hoping she would buy my tired routine. She seemed to because she turned on her heel and flounced out of my room. I fought all my feelings to stop her and tell her how I really felt. But nothing escaped my lips and I looked away from the door she just exited in shame. It was my own fault for feeling these sudden feelings now.

I clamored out of bed stubbing my toe upon the floor and tripping face first it the carpet. I cussed involuntarily as the pain, crept up my legs and arms. I then watched her head peek around the door with a worried look spread across her face.

“I heard a loud crash, are you alright?” Her voice was full of worry and it made me want to hug her. I shook that off and nodded a yes.

She shot me another worried look, but then disappeared behind the wall. I let out a long sigh, trying to gain back as much dignity as I possibly could. I pushed myself up from off the floor. I went to my closet and pulled out my jacket, which I almost always wore. I think that might have been because that was the first thing she had ever commented on when we first met. I pulled on some jeans and slipped my head band over the mess I called my hair.

I exhaled slightly waiting for Maka’s voice to ring through the apartment, and my head. I leaned on the nearest wall to gain support.But her voice didn’t chime. I was shocked and I looked up and down the hall for any traces of her, and I heard none. I trudged to the kitchen and a note was left one the counter. I examined it. Thoroughly and scrunched into a wad in my fist.

‘I went to school early…you seem kinda distracted, you know you can tell me anything~ Maka’

That was just it I thought, I can’t you anything of the sort, I mean what would you say, or worse what would you do?
Those thoughts scared me; I didn’t want to be without her so staying her partner was a must. But now since she noticed that I am so distracted maybe our wavelength wouldn’t match.

I continued to fret over this as I trudged to school my arms stretched out above my head. I was in to much thought even to notice where I was going, but I knew the way to school like the back of my hand. So paying attention was almost always optional. I kicked up a lose rock that sat on the side walk, its skipped a few paces in front of me then stopped. I reached down and scoped it up slowly examine it in detail. It was round with a jagged point on one side and a round end at the other. It reminded me a rain drop, or a tear. I wasn’t going to give it to much thought. I chucked it with all my might ahead of me.

I was the only one feeling this way, why couldn’t I control my own feelings? I was just having a hard enough time as it was.

I looked up from the side where I had been walking absentmindedly for about ten minutes. Then stretched out before me was Shibusen. I had to agree with Kid, it was very symmetrical and architecturally beautiful. The spires pointed into the sky as if reach for it, while the stairs ascended into a massive court yard that was filled with the mass of students.

I study the crowed, but I couldn’t spot her, maybe she had already gone to class. As soon as I crested the stairs I saw Black Star giving his daily morning speech as to how he was a god, or something like that but I couldn’t remember. Right next to Black Star I saw Kid yelling at the top of his lungs to shut up Black Star. I quickly pulled on my smirked and walked over to join them. They seemed to not notice my arrival, so I cleared my throat. They paused at their cussing and turned to stare at me. I was suddenly uneasy as there eyes bored upon me.

“Have either of you two seen Maka?” I asked in a nonchalant way

Both shook their head and returned to their cussing. I let out a long sigh and headed into the school. I pushed open the door to the lecture room and there I saw her sitting in our normal spots. I watched her wave.
I raised my hand to say that I noticed, but I wasn’t going to bother to wave back. I trudged up the stairs and sat next her on the bench seats. I noticed that she was fidgeting, that was a new one for Maka, she almost always never fidgeted, unless she was annoyed.
My anger rose suddenly as I realized I must have been the reason she was so annoyed. She gave me a hasty look and I cringed as our eyes met.

“Soul, I need to tell you something?” She whispered as she watched others enter the lecture room. I shrugged to appear like I didn’t care.

“Oh save it. It’s not important because if it was then you would have told me already.” I mumbled carelessly. I watched as the blow hit her face and she cringed slightly at my low blow.

“Yeah I guess.” She mumbled under her breath. She turned her attention from me to Dr. Stein, who had entered on his swivel chair and tipped over sliding across the floor. I looked down the rows. Everyone was here, and even Black Star had managed to make it here on time. I was slightly shocked at the thought of Black Star being on time, but I guess it was possible after all. I saw the three strips of Kids hair flash past my puerperal vision. He turned slightly and started having a conversation with Maka. I noticed suddenly that I wasn’t part of this so I turned my head slightly to listen in.

“No, I don’t know what wrong.” Maka sighed in a low whisper

“I am sure everything is fine, you shouldn’t worry so much about it Maka.” Kid whispered back. I saw Maka respond with a nod then turn and face the direction in which Dr. Stein sat.

He was talking about something I didn’t even begin to understand so I tuned him out with my thoughts of Maka.

For most of the day this was how it was for me. I turned to Maka when the final bell rang and it was time to go home. She seemed disoriented as we walked down the cascading steps of Shibusen. She then turned to me sharply.

“Soul, what are you thinking about right now?” It was a demand, and I was shocked she had even asked me such a question.

“Nothing really.” Giving her the most none descriptive answer I could think up right on the spot.

“That couldn’t be true; I know you have something on your mind. Is it a girl?” She asked slowly hoping to gain response from my actions instead of my words.

I froze for a moment to long and I watched Maka’s eyes grow wide.

“So it is a girl. Why didn’t you tell me?” She demanded again, but it was still more of a rhetorical question, so I didn’t reply.

“Who is she, do I know her?” She kept saying random questions right after another and I felt the rage building up inside me ready to blow.

“Yes you do know her.” this was all I could mange to say without exploding.

“Oh?” She mumbled, she seemed disoriented again and continued walking down the street towards our apartment. I was shocked at her response, since I half expected her to ask who it was again. She didn’t say another word even after we entered our apartment.

She went straight to her room, and I heard the door slam. I leaned against the kitchen wall contemplating what her possible problem could be, but I came up blank. It was a totally mystery to me as to why she was acting this way.
I pulled the refrigerator door open and gaze upon the contents, nothing struck me so I slammed the door shut. I paused. There was a lot of door slamming recently; I sauntered towards Maka’s room. The door was open a crack and I heard Maka’s soft sobs.
I banged the door open and gaze upon Maka who was sitting on her bad with her knees clutched to her chest.

Her eyes grew wide as she stared at me. Then violently she began rubbing her eyes which were a red. She started mumbling something I couldn’t understand.

“What is wrong?” My demand was harsher then it had been meant to be. She looked away and then back at me.

“Nothing really, I was just thinking that’s all.” Her voice was faint and I had a hard time hearing.

“Don’t give me that shit.” I demand again this time closing in on her, but as I walked over and leaned closer my voice dropped a few octaves. I was now staring directly at her, her face a few inches from mine. I felt all the heat in my body rush to my face, so I looked away quickly.

This seemed to take her by surprised, but she remained perfectly still, almost like she was a statue. At one point I was beginning if she had stop breathing entirely.

“Sorry, I just got upset over this little thing.” She sighed exhaling a shallow breath. Her response made me jump back a few inches, but still I held my gaze.

“What is this little thing?” I mumbled feeling utterly helpless.

“Well you see the guy I like…well he likes another girl.” She looked away for a moment, while a few more tears fell from her eyes.

I stiffened as I heard her speak. The guy she liked; liked someone else. If I ever figure out who it was I was going to pound them into a bloody pulp for making her cry. I felt my fist clench together the anger growing slowly in my body.

“What’s wrong Soul?” she asked timidly. Taking me aback and lessening my anger greatly. I was at a lost of what to say to her, and how to keep my secret.

“You shouldn’t worry about that guy; he is stupid if he doesn’t like you.” I managed to get out get out the words in a rush hoping that I wouldn’t slip up and say too much.

“I don’t think that.” She mumbled once again making it hard for me to hear her.

“Well start thinking that way. That way you can get over that loser.” I muttered sharply she gave me a pained look.

“I couldn’t get over him even if I tried. I see him way to much and I think about him way to much, but I care about him the most. I want him to be happy more then anything, and if that girl will make him happy then I will not stand in his way. I just wish I knew who the girl was.” She sighed, tears clinging to her eyes lashes as she finished speaking.

I stood there trying to comprehend exactly what she had said. She didn’t know who the girl was and I had no idea who the guy was. Then the revelation hit me, and when it did I lost all the control I had bothered to put up. My lips crashed upon hers and I could tell she was just as shocked as I was. It took as a few moments to fall into understanding each other. I felt her hands weave in and out of my hair, while my hands clutched her flushed cheeks. We broke away from each other, heaving and gasping for air. She stared at me for a long moment, and it felt as if time had stopped all together.

“Why did you do that?” She rasped out, still trying to catch her breath.

“I did it because I have wanted to do it for so long.” I huffed I was also still trying to catch my breath.
“What about the other girl?” Her eyes grew wide as she noticed her mistake and looked away.

“There was no other girl, just you. It has always been just you. It’s just that I may act cool, but even I do not know how to be cool in this situation. I thought of every possible reason not to tell, and to tell you. I was suffering beyond comprehension, and here I just thought you were really dense.” I chuckled lightly at my last sentence, but Maka’s face was still set in a scowl.

“You should have told me anyways. I thought I might lose you if... you made me worry so much when you were acting so strangely.” Sobs slowly creeping into her voice, and I wrapped my arms around her, hoping it would be comforting.

“I am sorry, I was just scared that's all.” I murmured into her ear. She shivered but stayed in place with her hands locked around my waist.

“It could have ruined our wavelength.” she sighed pulling me closer to her.

“I know, but it didn’t.” I whispered again

She nodded into my chest, and we fell silent listening to our breathing even as time slowly passed. I was scared to move, to ruin this moment it had taken me so long to get. I was once again at a lose of what to do.

Maka shifted under my grip and pulled away slightly I could tell she had something else she wanted to say.

“I wish you had told me sooner.” She exhaled heavily staring deeply into my eyes; I was getting more nervous the longer I looked.

“I wish you could have told me sooner.” I whispered lightly with a small chuckle under my breath.    

“Well no one is perfect.” She sighed flashing me a wide smile. I was melting again, but this time I melted into her.

I once again brought her lips upon mine since it was now my new addiction, and it surprised me how quickly I actually needed her to be close to me. Anything before would have been fine, but now it was her lips, were what I longed for. I noticed I caught her slightly off guard and with that I was in bliss. I had never had a feeling like this well up inside me. My hands were back clamped around her cheeks and her arms were tangled around my neck.

We broke free from another with a gasp, as we both ran out of air. We smiled at each other and there was no other place I wanted to be, unlike this morning when I wanted to hide from the world. She brought me out of hiding, and for that I owed her everything I could think of.

“You know Soul…this is kinda like my parents.” She giggled as a shocked look crossed my face.

“I meant it as a good thing, well mostly.” She chuckled lightly leaning in closer and gracing my cheek with a kiss.

“You really worry me.” I mumbled slowly getting over my sudden shock from her lips pressing against my hot skin

“Well yes that is pretty much the point, you want to know something you wouldn’t want me any other way.” She laughed mostly at my awkward answer to what she had said to me.

“That is where your right.” I smiled and let the world pass me by with her in my arms.